Perseverance

Saturday, February 07, 2009


Perseverance is a ball buster...
Current mood: strong
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes

Ok, so since about Thanksgiving I have been getting my ass kicked on a regular basis. Business, personal life, you name it. It's as if writing a book called "Suck it up, Buttercup!" is a challenge for the world to see how much crap I can handle at one time...the answer is quite a bit...in fact, the real answer is "I can handle much more crap than I ever thought possible." and I am not out of the woods yet...not by a long shot.

Even though I lie awake at night wondering how I am going to get through the next day and feed my kids, I know that I am on the right track and that in the long term, things are going to work out. It's the short term that is keeping me on the edge of my seat. I mean, everyday is like a shit storm right now and I don't have time to sit down and think everything through. Sometimes I get blasted before I even get to the office in the morning and then my whole day is shot because I am busy reacting.

On the other hand, I am able to get in some planning to make sure my head is on straight and that time is absolutely precious. It let's me put my thoughts down, and I ask myself if this is best for the long-term...sometimes the answer is "no" but depending on the circumstances, I have to do something that won't help me long-term, but will help me right now...if that is the case, then I have to do what I have to do to put food on the table. I try not to wander too far off path or off task, so that I can get back on track and I try to tie everything together, but like the title of this blog says, perseverance is a ball buster!

Nobody said it was supposed to be easy, and it isn't easy right now. there are a lot of folks wondering if I am going to have the integrity to follow up on my obligations and I don't blame anyone for questioning my integrity for the moment. There is only one way to make things right and that is to suck it up, and work my ass off until everyone sees that I am in it for the long haul. It just sucks that there are some good people who are not being taken care of right now because I absolutely hate letting people down.

anyway, as always, I am in it and will do everything possible to keep the drive alive. Thanks for letting me vent.

Rob